So many of us who are attracted to Tarot come to it during exploration of a Pagan-esque style of religion or spiritual soul-searching, and I am no exception. At the ripe old age of twelve is when I first became aware of Wicca, and explored that religion heavily, eventually discovering Tarot as it was mentioned in several of the books I read. I purchased my first deck at the age of 16, a standard Rider-Waite, and then quickly branched out by purchasing two more decks as I came across them, the Unicorn Tarot, and the Witches Tarot – to clarify, the one where the backs are black, with an uncentered silver pentacle on them. I dabbled with my Tarot cards for about 7 years or so, never really becoming totally familiar with them, and then when I left my ex-husband in 2007, I left my Tarot cards, and most of my earthly possessions behind when my parents rescued me from that abusive relationship and brought me back to Canada from the United States to start my life over again, at the young age of just 23.
The last 2 years of my life have seen me get back to my Pagan roots, and then shy away from them, then darting back, and then forth, timidly, the way a mouse peeks out of his mouse-hole into the open air of the world to find food. I have tried a few hats on, and read a broad expanse of spirituality books, trying to desperately feed the empty hole where my spiritual practice belonged. I also tried on many hats, and many names of religions, looking for the one that fit me and suited me best, including (but not limited to) Buddhism, Hinduism, various forms of Christianity, Wicca, Egyptian spirituality, Druidry, Paganism, Shamanism, Native American Spirituality, and more. They all had wisdom to offer, they all had bits I liked, and they all had appeal. But none of them were exclusively right for me. Six months ago, I decided to call my personal bent on spirituality Ethical Eclectic Spirituality.
The idea for my personal practice originally came from hearing CharmingPixieFlora on YouTube call herself eclectic, and I loved that idea, that you could pull bits and pieces together to form something uniquely you. But the problem came when I realized I wanted to bond pieces of different religions together. I didn’t’ think it could work that way. Then, I was fortunate enough to discover the book The Ethical Eclectic by Kaatryn Macmorgan-Douglas, and my view shifted. Suddenly, my spiritual practice could include pieces from all of that, so long as I pulled those pieces in an ethical and respectful manner, always being careful to not lump myself in with other spiritual groups, just because I liked something that they did, or assuming that all people of a certain spiritual group practiced or were open to this, that, and other things. I could cherry pick afterall. And I loved it.
My personal practice is just that, very, very personal. It is often stripped down to the bones when something feels wrong, then rebuilt structurally and put back together, fleshed back out again, only to be picked apart once again as I see fit. It sometimes, but not always, involves simple rituals, prayers, or other physical practices. It definitely changes, depending on my mood, my health, the seasons, even the weather or what I read about lately. Tarot is a big part of it, as it helps me to see things from a new angle, reassess what I’m doing, and where I’m going, and to help steer me in the right direction.
Some of what I talk about on this blog may or may not resonate with you, and I’m okay with that. I hope that as I continue to talk about my own practice and belief system, and that I as explore religion and spiritual practice in many ways that it will help you to expand your own horizons and question what you have always just held to be true, to critically think about your beliefs, and to reassess for yourself that yes, this still fits, or no, this needs to be discarded. I hope that my blog will reflect in some way my growth and maturing as a spiritual being, and that you will enjoy what you read. And I hope that if this does not resonate, that at least you can look at this a deeply personal experience, and respectfully navigate towards something else, without accusing me to be a Satanist, or desiring to convert me to your own religion.
Bright blessings,and namaste,